Deciding to Have a Baby

Trying about having a baby was something that Preston and I didn't think we would be doing, or evening thinking about, until at least two years of marriage. When we started to feel like it was time, we were both scared, excited, confused, happy, etc. It all started in December 2019... 

​I had been on my birth control for almost two years at this point, but it started to make me feel really sick. I missed my period, I had nausea, fatigue, frequent urination... all the early signs of pregnancy. We went to the store to get a pregnancy test. I took the test and we waited anxiously for the results. Longest three minutes of our lives, seriously! We were shocked at how disappointed we were when it was negative. I thought we would be relieved. We had only been married five months and I didn't feel anywhere ready to have a baby! I was still a baby myself! I had an appointment with my doctor and she said that birth control can change as you change and that could be why I was having the "pregnancy" signs. I was really hoping that she would say the test showed a false negative and I was in fact pregnant. 

​After this whole thing went down, we started seriously thinking and praying about if it was time to have kids. We went to the temple, where we feel the most peace and where we get our most important questions answers, after we fasted and prayed and we felt like we got our answer there. That was a spiritual experience that we will keep to ourselves, but we both felt that the answer was "yes"! However, we both felt really scared for that to be the case. As much as we wanted a baby, we were really scared to have that baby! We put a ton of trust into Heavenly Father and we knew that He was telling us that it was time. We got our answers in February and officially went off of birth control in March.